Mile 18 and the empty room
I run thousands of miles a year partly to find out what's in my head when nothing's in my head.
The honest version of why I run long is that I want to know what my mind does when I stop giving it anything to do. The first hour it litigates old arguments. The second hour it plans things I will not do. Somewhere around mile 18 the litigation runs out of material and the planning runs out of energy, and there’s a stretch — never long — where there is genuinely nothing in there. No thoughts. An empty room with the lights on.
I keep going back to find that room. It’s not enlightenment; it’s closer to a factory reset. The interesting part, as a sample of one, is that I can’t get there any faster. There’s no shortcut to the empty room — you have to bore your own mind into vacating the premises, and that takes exactly as long as it takes.
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